Dear Dad, I hope you had a lovely 93rd birthday. I thought I’d give you another update.

Dear Dad,

Mum and I raised a glass of fizz for you on your 93rd birthday. I’m sure the champagne was flowing freely for you with the angels.

I came across this the other day and thought of you even more…

I spent quite a bit of time in London this last week. It was my official induction time with Teach First. My ORRiginal start day should have been May 29th but, as you already know, that was brought fORRward as well as my working pattern changing for part time to full time. The timing could not have been better.

My days working with new colleagues were amazing. I have the privilege of working with an ORRsome team in the north east. I have made some great friends. We look out for each other and help each other out. I couldn’t ask to be in a better place than I am right now. It really affirmed how much I love what I do and do what I love.

I know you would have loved to have met all my new colleagues and friends. I also know you are pleased with the changes I have made.

Mum and I have already started getting my garden ready for summer and we have had several BBQs to date.

I know you loved the Fireworks Clematis and this year it really has come into its own.

This week I head to Leeds with the wonderful team with whom I work. I know it’s going to be a busy time but it’s going to be such an exciting time.

 

I’m ready to fly, Dad, and begin that new chapter in my life.

New days and new beginnings are happening and I really am doing what I love.

 

I can’t deny that some days are still hard. Walking into a shop where Father’s Day cards are on display has been really difficult.

I sang last night for Shiney Row Male Voice Choir. It was a lovely evening. 12 songs and two joint pieces made for a really ORRsome my evening.

The flowers I received were beautiful.

The interval was a challenge when a lovely choir chap asked how you were. He didn’t know that you had died and I found that really hard to tell him and keep my composure. I can’t even keep it typing this letter to you without tears running down my face.

The choir sang one of my FavORRite pieces, “Softly, as I leave you.” and again, I struggled to keep it together.

“Softly, I will leave you softly
For my heart would break if you should wake and see me go
So I leave you softly, long before you miss me
Long before your arms can beg me stay
For one more hour or one more day
After all the years, I can’t bear the tears to fall
So, softly as I leave you there
(Softly, long before you kiss me)
(Long before your arms can beg me stay)
(For one more hour) or one more day
After all the years, I can’t bear the tears to fall
So, softly as I leave you there
As I leave I you there
As I leave I you there.”

Many past choir members were remembered during this song – many of whom we had both known.

So many songs I sang Dad, reminded me of you so much. I know you were listening and I hope sang each song to the best of my ability and did you proud.

My final song was “My Hero” and I dedicated it to you. I know my voice faltered when announcing it and letting everyone know it was just for you. However, I know you were with me when I opened my heart, my lungs and my mouth and let rip and sang with all my heart and love for you.

I miss you so much, Dad. I love you with all my heart.

With all my love,

Rachel xxxxxx

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